After a real good sleep, we got up to go to the pool early. I felt alright, a bit more physically tired but not sleep deprived. I rode to work and got to work early so went for a run to stretch out the legs, nothing too strenuous, and it did wonders for the day. I wasn't so sore at all for doing that.
I've got one more day left of pills and struggling to get to pick up the prescription so I'm getting a little anxious. I need to make an extra effort to get it. I have noticed I am again nibbling at my finger nails, a sign that I'm anxious about something, but I can't place my finger on it. I wonder if it is money issues that are causing my anxiety. Something is there but I just can't work it out. Oh well, I need to be better at letting it go and moving on.
We had our coaching session with the kids tonight. We headed to Scorching Bay which was reasonably sheltered from the strong Northerly. We spent time doing some bike stuff and ended up in the water doing some sighting practice. There are definitely some good up and coming kids in Wellington. Hopefully we can keep them in the sport and watch them grow into top end athletes.
Got home about 7.30 and just tried to chill out. I am feeling in a better space, as some things don't bother me like they normally would. I do need to pick my game up and help out a bit more though. Conscious choices!
I have suffered from depression for a very long time, probably since I was a teenager. I have struggled with many aspects of my life to do the right thing, make the right choices etc. and now I am trying to be better. I acknowledged I had depression and did nothing about it. It took someone who I deeply respected to tell me they too had depression and they got medical to help, to finally seek actual real help. I am now and finally making real progress. Don't wait to get help!
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