Up early to get to the pool. Heaps of 100m's repeats. Hope to be near my peak from a couple seasons ago per 100m. Weather is definitely not holding out for a stellar November yet but here's hoping that we get great weather next weekend. Nothing like racing when the weather is good. Hoping to meet up with a few friends in Auckland who we haven't seen for a while too. Looking forward to getting out of Wellies for a bit too.
Even though I'm having 2 pills a day, I don't seem to get out of the small funk I've been in. I find small things a bit annoying, and I am expressing myself in the old grumpy voice I had seem to had lost for a while. Am I in such a bad habit of getting frustrated and throwing whatever I am holding at the time, that I don't know how not to? Maybe those around me are also struggling with their own demons and 2 of us combined just don't compliment each other as we struggle on through life.
I've come to accept that life isn't supposed to be easy and I can't expect life to magically get easy, this is my life, I have issues and struggles, and I need to make better choices to improve the lives of those close to me. Hopefully I can step up and stay calmer when faced with those situations that cause me to erupt when I want it to stop, because I don't know any other way to end it.
Missed my run session tonight, so need to kick my own butt and get out there and beat the pavement. Patched the bike up for the upcoming races, just need to go out on a test ride to make sure it's good to go. Hope the weather improves.
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