Sunday.
Had a great sleep in. I'm feeling quite relaxed at the moment, not too many things tend to get me wound up. We took Alex to the bus for her swimming bus trip so had the day teen free. Spent a couple of hours finishing up the Christmas stuff and all but 1 thing left to get. The day slowly deteriorated weather wise the longer it went.
Waited until 5ish to go for our run. It was a hard set and with the wind picking up. Jane had a go at me when she ran out of sugar in her system and I couldn't deal with it too well, so I ran off to finish my run and meet up with the girls at the pool. That didn't happen. They did pick me up though and a silent car ride home. Just as well it was only a 3 minute journey.
Am I too selfish to worry about my training when Jane is struggling? Am I justified in standing my ground and not accepting Jane's sugar low tantrums and rants, and finishing my session properly without compromising the quality of my session? How can I improve as an athlete when I feel I have to compromise my efforts just so I don't upset someone? Do we just not train together at all? Some days I do wonder if the grief is worth it.
Had a great sleep in. I'm feeling quite relaxed at the moment, not too many things tend to get me wound up. We took Alex to the bus for her swimming bus trip so had the day teen free. Spent a couple of hours finishing up the Christmas stuff and all but 1 thing left to get. The day slowly deteriorated weather wise the longer it went.
Waited until 5ish to go for our run. It was a hard set and with the wind picking up. Jane had a go at me when she ran out of sugar in her system and I couldn't deal with it too well, so I ran off to finish my run and meet up with the girls at the pool. That didn't happen. They did pick me up though and a silent car ride home. Just as well it was only a 3 minute journey.
Am I too selfish to worry about my training when Jane is struggling? Am I justified in standing my ground and not accepting Jane's sugar low tantrums and rants, and finishing my session properly without compromising the quality of my session? How can I improve as an athlete when I feel I have to compromise my efforts just so I don't upset someone? Do we just not train together at all? Some days I do wonder if the grief is worth it.
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