Today was supposed to be a long bike, but I had a very upset stomach and felt awful about 25km from home. Not a good place to be. So with only 2 hours done, I got home and ended up crashing out on the couch.
Oh well at least I also have tomorrow off to get another long bike in too.
I think I'm beginning to stress out about the lack of training I have done in preparation for this Ironman. I don't actually deal with my stress too much. It usually causes me to fly off the handle very quickly. Sometimes I wonder if I suffer from other mental disorders other than depression and an anger issue.
I have suffered from depression for a very long time, probably since I was a teenager. I have struggled with many aspects of my life to do the right thing, make the right choices etc. and now I am trying to be better. I acknowledged I had depression and did nothing about it. It took someone who I deeply respected to tell me they too had depression and they got medical to help, to finally seek actual real help. I am now and finally making real progress. Don't wait to get help!
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